school is kicking my ass. 7 projects due by june 2nd. Homework all day. Chain of Strength, Allegiance(/nh), Graf Orlock, and Slayer all weekend. fucking screwwwwwweeeeeddddd. Can't wait to get out of this mess. these messes.

At (definite) risk of calling the kettle black I have to say that I hate liars. Glass house, chucking boulders, yeah I know. I gave you so many chances to come clean. Shits becoming one big tired cliche and I've had more than my fill. Dunzo.

Can't believe I missed ron's game winner last night. fuck school.

J+J. No other dude currently in the game flows better. 3 years later and this still goes.


I'm 20! Someone shoot me for titling this post that way!  Another year down, another year older. Just as juvenile and immature as last year if you ask me. I don't know what the fuck I'm doing. Birthday weekend was real chill, best one in a while. Now back to work. The semester is coming to a close and there is a bunch of shit to do. words of advice;

In other news, my school's student art show is going on this month and the gallery reception/open house is this Friday, May 21st. Facebook peeps check out the event info right  HERE.  There will be food and music and you can check out some of my work and the work of my buds in the student gallery.They even used your boy's shitty piece to advertise this whole thingymajig. Cool! I'll be there and so will my goons so come by and stuff your face with cheese cubes and crackers and watch us spike the punch or something. Guaranteed to be tons (adequate amounts) of fun.


"confused by the rules, scorned by attitudes,
suppressed by manipulation, and destroyed by modern society." 

this whole arizona thing is bugging me. I just find it hard to understand. how can people still think this way? in this country? this fucking country? these fucking states? Specially now. Decades removed from japanese internment camps and Jim Crow. "History reshits itself". Just baffles me how some politicians either don't know the history of the state they run or just choose to blatantly ignore it. Whats wrong with people? This false sense of entitlement; get off it. it's their "destiny" to occupy land that their ancestors acquired in the most unnatural way. Just them. No one else. "You have to earn it. You are not worthy of living in a state that our ancestors bought stole from your ancestors. this is america now." Forget about legality, forget about compassion, learn your fucking history. I've never been one to share the "liberate aztlan" sentiments of MEcha or the various "RAZA" movements but I can't help but feel like they do have a point. Americans didnt settle these states. Mexico did. And with the exception of a few cases (Juan de OƱate), they did it in a more honorable way. How quickly they forget the hard work of the mestizo/afromestizo, native american, and indigenous mexican population's hard work to prime these states for america to run away with. The Treaty of Guadalupe Hidalgo has got to be one of the biggest steals in the history of mankind, ranking up there with the purchase of Manhattan and the Lakers' acquisition of Pau Gasol. 150 years later and look at whats going on here.

"Give me your tired, your poor, Your huddled masses yearning to breathe free.." My ass. I guess they don't have a south facing golden door, no lamp for lady liberty to lift here. Don't get me wrong, I'm not arguing that illegal immigrants should own this land, i'm not saying these states still belong to the Mexica. I just want people to know what happened centuries ago and tell me this ain't some fucked up shit going on here. SB1070 is pure unadulterated racial profiling. Yeah they can sugarcoat it as much as they want but make no mistake about it, this is illegal and unconstitutional. The byproduct of wholesale demonizing, sb1070 is chockful of cultural bias and predisposition. Uhh HELLO, prop 187 anyone? Plyer v Doe? They can say that it was crafted to combat mexicant drug cartels, then why don't they target just the drug cartels? They're pooling a completely separate group of people who dont deserve to be sucked into this. Illegal mexican drug cartels ARE NOT the same fucking thing as undocumented workers. Get the fuck outta here Arizona. Yeah I'm mad, you should be too. This is bullshit right wing propaganda and people are eating it up. Way to set yourselves back 50 years. Sucks that we latinos/hispanics don't have a thundering unified voice. No Chuck D to send a a big "fuck you" to arizona this time. No Corky Gonzales. I dont know why we don't build a significant united front. Some say we lack an identity. (We are after all a hybrid race compromised of Spanish/anglo settlers, indigenous mexicans (mexica), and african slaves. Mix that all together and you pretty much get brown.) We need to stand up, legal immigrants, illegal immigrants and chicanos alike. Help out your brothers and sisters.
I think Bobby Hundreds did a great job in discussing this issue; "This country was built off the backs of immigrants, legal and illegal. Consider the European settlers who crash-landed the Mayflower, they were as undocumented and unwelcome as it got. We are all immigrants, we are all aliens, and we are all American. So why are some of us being treated differently?"

Here's a link to the bill http://www.azleg.gov/legtext/49leg/2r/bills/sb1070s.pdf . Make your own conclusions. Thanks for reading mine. I'm off it man. Makes me lose all hope in people sometimes. Fuck it. Just my .02.

Pac Div-Here We Go
I'm lacking structure. I need a third wind. I need more sleep. hectic. rabid. frenetic. business as usual I guess. I developed this technique in which I get rest in class while still being able to pay attention. It involves basically timing my sleepy head nods to dead periods during lectures. Not really a technique but it pays off. used to pay off. now im just tired. this whole no sleep thing is catching up to me. I'm not really taking advantage of the measly free time I can corral together. I've been slacking off lately and I couldn't be doing it at a worse time.

I found this picture on facebook a couple days ago and don't remember taking it at all. the fuck is wrong with me? At least it looks like im having fun.
I'm Carlos, a 19 year old design student from Torrance, California.